Hey Love, I suck at writing long post with my poor sentence structure. MEOW!
I just want to thank you for sticking with me together and believing in US by going through lots! I really hope you’re happy being with me because I am damn sure about me being more than happy to have you by my side.
Another 4 days to your birthday and I am sorry I couldn’t do much. But don’t worry baby we will celebrate it once you’re back and we will spend the next birthday’s together.
Few more months you’ll be home and I really looking forward you to come home and I am really looking forward you to come back so we can continue our journey together.
I am sorry for what happened earlier. Recently I’ve been trying to get your attention. I am really stressed with work with that one project that I am bearing. I am sick of getting bombarded. Almost everyday, and I couldn’t find a way to solve it. I really feel incapable to cope with my work knowing that in another 3 days I will be having appraisal interview with my boss.
Having you is the best thing, but recently it’s hard to get your attention. I understand that you’re stressed there too with your dissertations and also assignments. Often when we are facetiming you’re on your phone. I tried hinting you by playing my phone too when on the phone with you but I don’t think you realize why I did that.
I have a lot in my head. My heart feels heavy. I didn’t want to let out because you’re so far away and don’t wanna burdened you with my problems as well. We’ve been comfortable with each other and baby I am like no other man that he thinks he will be happy when his gf/wife is away from home so that can have their time of their own. Every time you’re at work I’ll wait for you till you’re done and home safe then I sleep. ( Yes sometimes I slept off 😦 ) But baby. I still love you more than anyone else. I bring you wherever I go not because I am clingy but because I can and I didn’t expect that from you the same. But when you call to talk to me please talk to me. I don’t mind the time where we call and talk absolutely nothing because I know you’ve got things to do.
Recently I got jealous is because I feel like your friend Han is closer to you but I am not. We need to be how we used to be baby. Please.
I miss you and I miss us.
I am sorry for what I’ve done. I am sorry for times that I put you through. I am sorry for allowing tears to roll down your cheeks. ( I Felt like slapping myself just now)
You’re truly independent when you’re alone out there (Of course I am proud of it) BUT baby you don’t have to work so hard like that. Knowing you’re working the whole night without good sleep and coming home sick and tired is not I or even your mom wants baby.It is indeed worrying.
Now I could really feel the distance not because you and I are not talking or clinging to each other but the fact that I can’t support you monetarily and not there by your side physically to take care of you. 😦
The LONG HOURS of you working at night will jeopardize your mood, health and even your studies.
Baby please stay healthy. PLEASE!
I hope you don’t misunderstand me for asking you to QUIT the Job (That doesn’t make you a Quitter) Find a lite job instead of a job that kills you slowly. I know you may wonder like why others can do why can’t I right?
We don’t have to do what others do or even being able to do what others do. They aren’t like you that just aim to pass, you’re aim is to excel which you can pretty sure do it. I don’t want this to be a distraction for you baby.
I hope you will take this into deep consideration baby. I love you and I miss you a lot.
We’ve been through many ups and downs but you still put up with me. There are many more months and days till we meet. I am working to get there to you, but it doesn’t just seem to be sufficient. I will never give up baby. I wanna be able to wake up next to you like tomorrow and everyday. The days will come and we will stay till we grey and old.
Typing this while looking at you and I can’t hold my tears. 😦 Don’t give up on me and us please. I love you ❤
All these years I’ve felt very comfortable being alone. Just didn’t care much no matter how life hits me I’ll just take it and go.
Ever since I met you I have to admit that I have become emotionally relying on you. Err don’t judge okay. You’ve made me a better person. Since I started talking to you I smile constantly and I love it. Aside the struggles that we go through sometimes I’ve always believed that we will overcome it no matter what baby. I will not give up on you and I don’t want you to give up on me .
Even now I am looking at you. So beautifully beautiful focused on your work in the library. I want to come there as soon as possible. I miss you alot alot.
Knowing you are going for housekeeping training just to earn some extra cash so you can come back just so unbearable. But I love the courage you have. Seeing you independent makes me proud, but know it when you’re back here you’ll be my princess.
Take care baby. I love you and I miss you. Another day pass by, and Indeed it was a super long day. Can’t wait to see you.